New room layout
cjankowski

I'm on the bottom bunk.

The view from the door.

My desk area.

My babies.

Mr. Melkior Gabore. He's fierce!

The view from my bed.

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Bad timing
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My bosses' boss decided today would be a fun day to come to the front desk. Today is the first time, out of the 9 months I've been working here, that I've choosen to wear sweats to work. EVERY single other time I've worn a polo, nice jeans and fantastic shoes. Fml!

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Do it
cjankowski

Don't talk about change. BE the change you wish to see in the world.

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An open letter to my coworkers
cjankowski

Dear Day Clerks,
I've tried to be understanding, I really have, but it's got to stop. When you're scheduled to work after me, and the schedule says 7 am, be here to take over the desk by 7:03. It's the same thing, day in and day out. You show up 10-45 minutes late and shrug it off. I can't be expected to fill in for you just because you wanted 20 extra minutes of sleep. Part of being a college student is learning how to manage time. I have an 8 am class. That means by 7:05 I need to be leaving work, not wondering where your sorry asses are. The next time it happens, I'm calling the RC on call to cover for you, and leaving. I can't afford to be late to class everyday!

Sincerely,
Chris

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Last snow storm pics!
cjankowski

Yes, that was a penis that they were building. I was impressed by their skill.

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I has the mobile version
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I've added the lj mobile app so now I can post more frequently.

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An oxymoronical feeling
cjankowski
School, work and friends are going to be the death of me. I want to escape and be alone---yet when I am, I crave their presence. I have an irrational fear of being alone, when I am, I tend to reflect, and that never turns out well. I've realized several things about myself, above all, I'm too generous. Yes, too generous. I tend to give and give, yet receive little in return. It's something that I am going to change about myself. 

Moreover when I am around them, they deem it necessary to make fat jokes at my expense. There is no need. I know this. Every time I take a bite out of a chip, and you look at me, I am reminded of the fact that I am 80-100 pounds over weight. I'm reminded of this so much that I've developed an eating disorder. I still eat normally, however, I am not able to keep it down. Instead, I excuse myself to the bathroom and involuntarily spew a meal plan's worth of food into the porcelain bowl, all in the name of thinness. 

I've also decided to start trimming my circle of friends---it's a necessary thing, which reminds me of a quote from one of my favorite plays:
"If somebody wants to walk out of your life, let - them - go!
Some people are meant to come into your life for a lifetime, some for only a season and you got to know which is which. And you're always messing up when you mix those seasonal people up with lifetime expectations. I put everybody that comes into my life in the category of a tree. Some people are like leaves on a tree. When the wind blows, they're over there... wind blow that way they over here... they're unstable. When the seasons change they wither and die, they're gone. That's alright. Most people are like that, they're not there to do anything but take from the tree and give shade every now and then. That's all they can do. But don't get mad at people like that, that's who they are. That's all they were put on this earth to be. A leaf. Some people are like a branch on that tree. You have to be careful with those branches too, cause they'll fool you. They'll make you think they're a good friend and they're real strong but the minute you step out there on them, they'll break and leave you high and dry. But if you find 2 or 3 people in your life that's like the roots at the bottom of that tree you are blessed. Those are the kind of people that aren't going nowhere. They aren't worried about being seen, nobody has to know that they know you, they don't have to know what they're doing for you but if those roots weren't there, that tree couldn't live. A tree could have a hundred million branches but it only takes a few roots down at the bottom to make sure that tree gets everything it needs. When you get some roots, hold on to them but the rest of it... just let it go. Let folks go."
-Tyler Perry's Madea goes to Jail
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No news is good news, right?
cjankowski
The past two days have been a blur---what with all of the packing and boxing up of my earthly goods. I've managed to do most everything and tomorrow should be a fairly easy day.

To do list:
-Finish Laundry
-Clean room
-Have car checked out
-move things into car
-Charge phone to full capacity

Because once wasn't enough
cjankowski
I've learned my lesson. If it fails once, it's probably going to fail the second, third and fourth times. It's not that I'm a masochist, or that I even like pain, but for some reason I keep letting him in---allowing him to hurt me. Well, I'm over it. Today is the start of a new Chris. From now on, I'm over it, and him. I've deleted him from my buddy list, my friends list and subsequently, from my life.

At any rate, I won't  be using this blog to rant, or to throw bitch fits often. I plan on using it to collect my thoughts, and to organize myself. 

Today's diet consisted of:
-Buscits and Gravey
-2 Cups of chips
-Boca Burger
-French fries
-6 Sodas
-Piece of cake

What I need to cut out this week:
-Caffeinated drinks (Soda, coffee, energy drinks, etc)

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